fuck this shit

omg. I'm done. I'm FINALLY DONE! with my friggen summer reading. I've been working on it all this week, and now I'm completely exhausted, but I feel so much better. I mean, y'all have no idea. I think Tony, Aimee and Kayla are all still going, 'cos Aimee and Kayla didn't really start until today... Tony had read about halfway through LotF today, but he'll be alright. He was on about five minutes ago, but then he got back off... *tear* I wanted him to be on when I got done lol. oh well.

I'm now dead on my feet, so I think I'll go to bed now. g'night y'all!

COMMENT! I love them ^.^ and since y'all are having issues with the friggen tagboard... :-P

Soo yeah, Tony came over today ^.^ that was a lot of fun. And we actually worked this time!!! I was soooo proud of us. And it got really hot in my room, so Tony took out my chinese fan and started fanning me. So then we started making this whole scene that was like... on the beach with palm trees and grapes and all that kinda stuff. It was really funny. ^.^ although, he kinda freaked me out a couple times @.@ don't do that, Tony!!! gaaah! lol

anyways, school starts tomorrow. I sort of can't wait/ can wait. I mean, I don't really wanna go to school, but I really wanna see everyone again. I dunno. plus, I still don't have my summer reading done >.< I really have to get that done... I prolly won't be online too much until after Friday. or well, I'll be online, but I can't be disctracted from typing up my answers. At least this year I don't have choir to worry about.

ok, that's all. COMMENT PEOPLE! GO GO GO!!!

erm... ignore that last post.

Anyways, I'm currently supposed to be packing for band camp, which starts in 3 hours, but I'm waiting for the last of my clothes to finish drying -__- not much I can do there, eh? also, my mom isn't home yet, so I don't know if I get my snacks or not, or if I get money or not, or where the sunscreen or flashlights are. so... >.<>heard. ^.^ I have yet to see whether or not it's true, but whatever. :-P

well, I guess that's all. unless you want me to post about how church camp was... ^__~ it was awesome. the dan I made out with in the box maze was there and he tried to hold my hand once, but I wouldn't let him, 'cos I don't like him like that. And his little brother was hitting on me, which was rather... yucky. Jeff was awesome. I love that guy ^.^ He's so awesome and frickin hilarious! We were doing a water gun fight where you were out when the alka seltzer tab hanging from your neck fell off, and Neil set all of the little kids on us five poor youth, so we all put our backs to each other and shot at them. It was sooo much fun and I got soaked >.< Jeff took his shirt off tho, which was really nice. :-P

and that really is all you're getting for right now. now.... COMMENT! go go go go go! I know you can do it!

you know, some people really should show their affections more towards some people instead of ignoring them like they've been doing.

w00t for quizzes! ^.^

Take the quiz: "What'>http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=1462">"What Kind of Soul Do You Retain?"

Loving
You have a very warm and loving aura about your soul and believe in the virtues of Love. To you, there is a bright side to everything! You are the polar opposite of the Dark soul.

Take the quiz: "What'>http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=1823">"What Angel Are You?"

Sky Angel
You are the Sky Angel.You are calm, peaceful and serene.It can take an eternity to make you angry, but you can be very distructive on a whim.You can be slow to make friends, but you will stick by somone through thick and thin, and won't betray them, like the night.You like blues and whites, pastely colours.You are also atracted to birds, as they share your domain.

Take the quiz: "What'>http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=989">"What Celtic Diety are you?"

The Triple Goddess
(Pan-Celtic) The Triple Goddess is known and worshipped in Pagan cultures the world over. She is eternal, yet always changing. Like the moon which represents her, she shows a different face throughout her eternal cycle, yet she is always the same moon. At once she's the Maiden, Mother, and Crone, the creatrix who births all things into being, who devours all at its ending, and who provides life anew when the cycle begins again.Many different colors are attributed to her, but in Celtic Paganism they are white for the Maiden, red for the Mother, and black for the Crone. Throughout the Celtic lands many ancient remnants of her preeminence remain. One of the best examples survives at Corleck, County Cavan, Ireland, where an ancient and weathered stone is carved with three faces. Each face looks out to a different direction

I took this quiz 3 times and got this one twice, so I guess this is me >.< href=""What'>http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=1500">"What Linkin Park song are you?"

One Step Closer
You are: ONE STEP CLOSER!!

w00t for Linkin Park! ^.^ COMMENT PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEASE! I'm not posting again until I have 10 comments.

bwahahaha. I'm going to type my name for y'all ^.^ yes, this is your post. I'm dedicating this one to Rachel, since that's the word I'm going to be typing the most. teehee!

type your name with your:

nose: r4efqachel <-- had a little trouble at first with that one ^.^ then I figured it out :-P

elbow:racheol <-- whoops ^.^

tounge: rachel <-- blegh... that one was GROSS... >.<

chin: frzas chnbel. <-- heh... guess I can't type with my chin :-P

eyes closed, one finger: rachel <-- w00t!! ^.^

back of your hand: rachel <--nyah nyah nyah ^.^

palm: rachel <-- bLAh. that one was BORING

feet: 5raqchel <-- that one was FUN ^.^

soo.... Ashley was a LOT better at this than me ^.^ wow, how crazy is that? when I left, she couldn't type at ALL :-P j/k, Ashley. I love you ^.^ *blows kiss*

ok, there's everyone's post! fine, I'll tell you a BIT of what I'm doing.

I have band tonite at 7 so... that'll be interesting. I'm kinda freaked out tho >.< haven't practiced mallets all summer, and I haven't paid ANY of my fees, 'cos we didn't know if we'd be moving or not, but now, we're STILL not sure, but we're gonna plan that we're staying, so YAY for that! ^.^ so yeah, I have to talk to Mr. Riley and tell him that I'm not gonna be there for band pics or the rehearsal the day before that 'cos I have church camp, which I've been signed up to go to ever since we found out when it is @.@ buuut, we get to go PAINTBALLING, which'll be awesome ^.^

THERE is your post. everyone be happy now ^.^ and COMMENT. pleeeeeeease? you know I love them ^.^

fiiiiiiiiiiiiine. I'm posting. grawr. I hope y'all are happy.

I'm dedicating this post to Ashley, since she bugged me so much about it. :-P are you happy now?

So, what to post about? I suppose I could post about Laura's party... yeah, I think I shall do that.

So anyways, I woke up at 6:30 so i could get dressed and pack last minute stuff and everything before heading over to methesco at 7. So, I hung out there all morning, fun stuff it 'twas. ^.^ I read in the library for a while, then walked down to the pond and read on the banks of that for a while. Then I walked over to the Dining Hall and swung until noon. That's when I walked back over to the library to wait for Laura to come pick me up. She was supposed to come pick me up at about 12:30ish, but she picked me up closer to 1:00. :-P it's ok, I still love you ^.^ So, we picked up Ali (YAY) and went to Laura's house. We watched an episode of Inu Yasha and got online. I introduced Dan to Ali and Laura, and Laura locked me in the closet. Dan saved me tho ^.^ All three of us got sold on ebay twice. lol Claire finally got there, and we just hung out basically lol. We stayed online for quite a while, I think we scared a bunch of ppl. Then, we ate pizza. YUM. Then, we had ICE CREAM CAKE ^.^ and Laura and I didn't eat it with anything except our mouths and hands. I only used my hands to pick up the plate. ^.^ it was soooo much fun. lol. We watched Who's Line when it came on which was awesome. Gotta love Colin and Ryan lol. after that. we just watched TV for a while, messed with each other and eventually fell asleep. I think I was the first. XD So, in the morning, we got up about 10:30ish. We ate donut holes for breakfast. yumm. we got online, and eventually everyone went home, but it was trés fun ^.^ I was really glad I got to go lol.

Ok, y'all got your post. :-P are you happy now? COMMENT

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface.
DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE EXPECTING OF ME
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
EVERY STEP THAT I TAKE IS ANOTHER MISTAKE TO YOU
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
 
I've become so numb I can't feel you there.
I'VE BECOME SO TIRED, SO MUCH MORE AWARE.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me, and be less like you.
 
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control.
CAUSE EVERYTHING THAT YOU THOUGHT I WOULD BE
HAS FALLEN APART RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
AND EVERY MOMENT I WASTE IS MORE THAN I CAN TAKE
 
I've become so numb I can't feel you there.
I've become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me, and be less like YOU.
 
AND I KNOW
I MAY END UP FAILING TOO.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.
 
I've become so numb I can't feel you there.
I've become so tired, so much more aware.
I'M BECOMING THIS, all I want to do
Is be more like me, and be less like you.
 
I'VE BECOME SO NUMB I CAN'T FEEL YOU THERE.
I've become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me, and be less like you.
 
 
Are you getting the picture yet? I'm tired of being yelled at. I'm tired of getting in fights. I'm tired of bad stuff happening. If you don't trust me anymore, if you don't like me anymore, if you don't wanna be my friend, FINE. Just, fine. whatever makes you happy.
 
So I've changed a lot since I moved, huh, Laura? No not really. My interests have changed, yes, but I remained really good friends with you up until the past couple of weeks. And if I have changed and you can't deal with it, then I guess that's the end, isn't it?
 
And to all the ppl on my tagboard, I don't even know half of you, I'd really appreciate it if you'd STOP DISSING ON ME WHEN I DON'T KNOW WHO THE HELL YOU ARE. I mean, honestly, you are such a coward. You're all bark and no bite, 'cos you'll never tell me who you are, even tho I've been trying to get it out of you for over half a frickin year now.
 
Emily, never give out this url AGAIN, or I will personally hurt you. Severely.
 
*glares*

I sit here in front of the computer screen and I'm listening to launchcast. I keep hearing this one phrase that sticks out in this song. "Give it up" It reminds me of earlier. you said that I might as well give up, that I'd never make it. I will. I won't give up, because i'm not one for giving up. I've started this job, and I'll finish it. you'll see. I don't care how thick those things are, I'm going to break them down. I'll do it alone if I have to. I'm not afraid anymore. I'll never be alone. I'll always have friends. That's what they here for. So what if they can't really understand you? What does that matter? Friends are there so that you're not alone. So none of us are like you. We can mix, there's no need to match.

I'll be your friend no matter what it takes. You mean so much to me. Really. I just hope that you'll believe me.